Farida's Poems:

 

Who is Farida?

 

“I was originally born in Ghana but was brought over here as a young child. I live with my mum and siblings. My inspiration is everything and anything. Poetry is my haven, salvation and release. I find in writing a sense of bliss that is more profound that anything ever imagined. All my poems are about things that have directly or indirectly affected my life or the people around me. I find myself usually getting dragged into politics and debates mostly, often pushing my first love- poetry, to the back... I write on the spur of the moment.

    My favourite author is Maya Angelou.” - Farida.

 

 

Her Story

 

How am I suppose to grow?

How am I suppose to live the life that

I want, choose or would like                                           

When you, filled my mind with negative thought

And ideas that have become a

Hindrance, to my emotional growth

 

Enslaving me with your brutality

And striking me down every chance you got

With words that seemed to destroy

At the very core of my heart

Your dislike for me stemming from

The fact that I look like your first love

 

Was I suppose to pay for the mistake

that you both made

Choosing to lie down and share with

Each other- a love that you thought

You both felt...then Sacrificing my

Happiness, because to you

I was worth nothing

 

Such negativity- I try not to let

change my perception of life

But do you think it's fair- that I

sit at home, all alone and scared

Crying constantly... because you

kept forgetting that your blood

flow through my veins and I am

a part of your creation

 

I'm not blinded by the fact that

this life isn't easy

Raising myself without your help

Seeing that you are happy with

someone else- raising another family

But still recreating your yells and screams

in my mind- as a mechanism to get over you

 

But it's still hard for me at night

Hearing my mother's silent cries

Knowing very well that her tears- like mine

Bears the mark of years of abuse and lies

See my open heart- covered with scars and

pain that your angers left

Now clutching at rays of hope, love and security

Something that you never gave me

Last night

It's kinda hard for me

Because before I met you

Every hope and dream I had of love had

Slipped through my hand

Like sand in a punctured hour glass

And I cried last night

Because you don't seem to understand

Where I'm coming from and how

You've changed my view on love

You said to me the night we met

That we could grow to be something

Beautiful- like a rose that grows in concrete

But now it seems like i'm the only 

one who sees that dream

And I cried last night

Because I saw my life sooo

Bleak without you and knowing 

That I'll never feel your arms around me

Holding me gently as I sleep peacefully

Funny, you knew my history

And all the flaws that surround me

But still you said that you'd hope

To one day be the only one

That I would call in time of need to

Tenderly erase the pains of my day and 

Sit with me...quietly...as 

The anger slowly melts away

But now I look out- onto the corridor

And your shadow no longer grazes the walls

Now all my hope is gone

And it pierces my inside

To think... I didn't even know you that long

I'm thinking to myself that it's time

to move along because you don't seem 

interested anymore

And even though my mind is telling me to go

My heart still wants to know

Let me show you that i'm here

And like water to earth

Quench your thirst

But somehow, all this seems to be in my mind

And i'm sitting here-in my room

By myself with my teddy bears

Staring at the open space

Thinking of you and wondering

If you are thinking of me too